Worry

"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you shall eat or what you shall drink, nor about your body, what you shall put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add one cubit to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they neither toil nor spin; yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O men of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What  shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek all these things; and you heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things shall be yours as well.

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Let the day's own trouble be sufficient for the day." Matthew 6:25-34 (RSV)

I have been really anxious lately. I'm not even entirely sure why. I can be quite a worrier. I don't want to be, not anymore. I know that God will take care of everything. I believe that He will take care of everything.

Maybe what I really need is a change in perspective. Last time I did this--worried about everything, pretty much--all it took to break the funk was a little change in perspective, the realization that a little change in my viewpoint would make so many of the things I was worrying about not even really worth worrying about. Like finishing all my summer goals, down to the letter. That was my original goal, going into the summer. But that was before I got a job. And even if I hadn't gotten a job, is that really something worth worrying about? Will worrying magically get things done? Should I take my list as a MUST BE DONE OR DEATH kind of list? Of course not! It's a list of things that should be done, will make my life easier later, or that I put on there in the hope that they would bring me closer to God. Of course all of those things are important, and I fully intend to try as hard as I can to still complete as many goals as possible; but worrying won't accomplish that anyway.

Maybe I just feel like a bad Christian when I worry. Thankfully God doesn't care about what a "good Christian" or a "bad Christian" looks like. He just loves me, and wants me to love Him back. He just wants a relationship with me, whatever that ends up looking like.