Dancing

Yesterday I heard someone say to a group of kids, "I saw how much you enjoyed dancing to the Gummy Bear song. But you didn't enjoy Every Move I Make nearly as much. You know, Jesus wants you to have just as much fun with Him as you did when you were dancing to the Gummy Bear Song. It's a lot of fun being with Him." I thought, "Of course I know that. And I did enjoy Every Move I Make more than I did the Gummy Bear Song."

Then, this morning while reading my Bible, I realized that I don't enjoy reading my Bible nearly as much as I enjoy reading other things. Why not? The stories in there are just as good, the words are just as if not more thought-provoking, and the message is even more important than anything else I'll ever read.

This realization was part of a larger realization that lately I've been seeing myself as perfect, or at least with not much room for improvement. It's something that I tend to do, really--I think part of the problem with the Christianity of my younger self was that I held this idea of myself as perfect for far too long, and it made my faith stale. Because really, if we were already perfect, why would we need God? In the past year or so I've realized how important the knowledge of my own sin is to my faith--it increases my dependence on God so much, and my knowledge of His wisdom and power. So I just really pray that God will help me to know again my own sinful nature so that I may rely on Him more fully.